Drowning.

There is a breakage 

At the ceiling

And starts to purr 

liquid hell

Until i drown. 

Screaming outloud 

I cried my fears away.

And then I stayed silent once again

Mourned in silence. 

Waited in stillness 

Until I drowned. 

There is a beauty in darkness

In the form of giving up to false believes.

Letting go and then rise up

I am sure I will float again when I open up

my eyes.

I am sure I won't drown myself to these illusions.

These desires

But I can't help but see a dissolution

Of myself and me.

Of what I've been

And what I see

Before me.

At least until myself devours me.

Until I drown.

Until

I

drown.