Τετάρτη 28 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

Roots.

Roots inside my skin,
My veins keep me still.
Incapacitated.
I can't run forever neither I can stay.
Thoughts are longings.
Dirt and dust with time covers them, hides them from plain sight.
Carrying the spirit of past ages with them.
Haunting memories ahead, do not go on.

Δευτέρα 26 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

The final stage.

I battled too many demons in the realm of night
But at the end I am left alone in the eternal darkness
Hollow
Ancient
I am just a spark in the entire blackness
Staring at the abyss
I am at the peak
One step and I will fall
Or will I fly?
I thought I was ready for it but
Now I have to destroy me-
Or serve forever.
How can I destroy my inner self
My own being?
How can I leave behind myself
For a greater image
A sacrifice for what?
To be whole
In the eyes of love
Of the eternal god
The universe's mind.

The final boss is me against myself.
Somehow the demons look so easy now.

How can I look the same after here?
Go back and be the same old me I was before
This me is dead for sure
But also if I fly forward
How can I continue to live among the others
When myself is gone forever?
And if I fall then
Who is going to save me
Not a single soul inside this darkness
Just me and the ancient
Old gods
Judging me
Calling me home in the name of eternal love
Or screaming my name to go back and serve the master of puppets.
The external world
Once more.

No going back.
Not going back now.

I am camping at the edge of the abyss for a while.
Until I feel ready
To fly.

Κυριακή 25 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

Not two-faced, just too phased.

Nectar of ambrosia
Your glance
Poison lips
Pointing to mine
Piercing eyes
Undressing every secret
Of my mind

Kissing every dark thought
Loving every little detail
Solve me like a riddle
Embrace it
Erase me

Erase me. 

Icepeaks of pain.

I balance between intuitive thoughts
And judging ones
In order to understand the inability to understand.
Black shadows hide behind all kinds of smiles
Like imperfections on a perfect picture
Dark shades, ink spilled in random
Where it is not supposed to be
Then came into life and haunting me.
The rain can clean them all
Even though it might destroy the paper.
And I can finally dissolve among the pages at peace.

Δευτέρα 19 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

Φανταστικά πλάσματα και που να τα βρείτε

Όταν έχεις στο μυαλό σου ένα απίστευτο πρότζεκτ αλλά δεν έχεις τους πόρους να το υλοποιήσεις οπότε τα καλλιτεχνικά δαιμόνια σου δεν μπορούν να ελευθερωθούν και σε τρώνε σε σημείο που αναγκάζεσαι να βγεις να πάρεις αέρα αλλά δεν ωφελεί γιατί είναι συνέχεια μαζί σου όπου και αν πας.
Και σου τρώνε τα σωθικά
Και αναρωτιεσαι αν θα κρατήσει αυτό για καμιά βδομάδα ακόμα.
Και περιμένεις να βρεθεί κάποια νέα ιδέα να σε βασανίσει και να αντικαταστήσει την προηγούμενη
Και αν έχεις τις παροχές να την υλοποιήσεις.
Προς το παρόν μπαίνει κι αυτό στη λίστα των ιδεών.
Στον ζωολογικό κήπο του νου
Γεμάτο με πλάσματα που περιμένουν να τα ταισω.

Κυριακή 18 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

Bury me.

Cold head
Warm heart.

Ashes.
Bone structure made of dirt
Fire and water
Earthy matter.
Spirits of the seven winds.
Calling me.

Corpses burn and decay
And then flourish once again.
Like a phoenix from the ashes we are reborn
We sit among the shadows
On a land of moss and decay
Under a carpet of unspeakable beauty
And a sky of wonders.

Hating every moment of despicable beauty
Because it makes us feel
In a senseless world.

Bury me deep in order to be reborn again.
You.
Looking for me in everyone.
You can't find me in anyone.

Τετάρτη 14 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

A natural distress.

A foggy presence.

Ghosts mirrored

upon the waters

Looking at them

Is like looking at death in the eyes.

Just a gaze of nostalgia

Feeling like a raindrop in a pond

Swearing to reveal my secrets

If I look at them intensely.


Storm overwatering the soil

Like tears kept for years.

Can't you see the forms upon the earth?

The mud will eat it all.

The only way to heal it is to let it go.

All naturally shrink into the soil.

And the water will be cleaned when left alone.

Τρίτη 13 Δεκεμβρίου 2022

Noir

I cannot see myself behind the thick clouds. Pitch black smoke.
Charcoal, was my favourite after all
Draw until I cannot breath
And give myself to paintings.

Maybe I am like Dorian Grey
Decaying while the human out there lives.
Or maybe I am the human
Even though it doesn't feel like I live much.

Black and grey colours guide my spirit
Visions full of colours in a dark background.
I always said that black is all the colours and not white.
After all if I mix the colours all together what I see is just a dark grey medium.
But maybe you cannot see the colours without light as well.
Turn the lights on now to see the horrors.
Black as the void
The painting of my nightmare.

Τα όλα και το τίποτα.

Ανάσα βαθιά
Το αεράκι καθαρίζει την ψυχή
Απαρνήθηκα τους κρύους χειμώνες
Και τα ζεστά καλοκαίρια
Για μια αιώνια άνοιξη 
Και ένα στιγμιαίο φθινόπωρο.
Στην φύση βλέπω μόνο εμένα
Και τον εαυτό που μου στέρησαν.
Αυτόν που ρίζωσε δίπλα από δέντρα 
Και ήπιε νερό από τη βροχή
Κοιμήθηκε με το νανούρισμα της νύχτας
Ακούγοντας τα κύματα
Πάνω στο γρασίδι.
Κοιτώντας τα αιώνια βουνά
Γλυπτά της φύσης μόνο.
Μητέρα καλλιτέχνιδα.
Κοιτώντας τον ορίζοντα ίσως να σου τα δείξει.

Τα δώσαμε όλα για το τίποτα
Τα πήραμε όλα δίχως να δώσουμε τίποτα.
Και φλέγεται το πνεύμα για το τίποτα.